Introduction To Myself

The base

I was born in Romania, in '94, raised in a regular family for those times. Until the age of 5, my grandparents took care of my growth, in a small village, where money was rather heard than seen.

As like in today's world, most kids hated homeworks and school, and I was not an exception, so I've spent most of my time doing outside activities with others.

The first 3 years of high-school were tough because I:

• Was bullied by others as I was short, fat, with moderate to severe acne;
• Started smoking;
• Had mediocre degress;
• Lacked any kind of a vision of my future-self;
• Had no clue about emotional support;
• Was used to lie or make things-up to be accepted by others and avoid shame;
• Authenticity was an unheard word.

Those were just to name a few, but as you can imagine, my hopes for a fulfilling life were almost non-existent. I even quit watching movies as they seemed way too far from reality.

A negative mind is only able to see the negative aspects of life.

After my first relationship got broken and promised myself that I'll never fall in love again, I found that the alcohol could quickly repress my emotional pain.

When I thought that nothing could be worse, I started to feel some stomach aches, followed by an uncontrolled weight loss and life apathy. After several months of investigation, I got diagnosed with Crohn disease, an autoimmune inflammatory bowel disease.

The first shift in life

Due to the advanced symptoms of Crohn, I was given a shock treatment, which had quickly put me 2 weeks in bed. And by in bed, I mean it.

I even got used to the idea that I will die from moment to moment. I've never felt that lost and helpless. Until one evening, when I heard my mother crying in the other room.

A tremendous amount of motivation and energy hit me the next morning, and I got out of bed to do some biceps curls with 3kg dumbbells, which felt damn heavy.

Since that day, I slowly started my journey to a healthy lifestyle, as I decided to:

• Drink alcohol on rare occasions and to celebrate, not to repress my emotional pain;
• Stop smoking;
• Eat as clean as I could afford - as money was still an issue;
• Workout 5-6 days a week.

After 6 years, I could identify myself as a very healthy person. But what I did not know was that fact that this was just the physical aspect.

The second shift

By the time I got my health in place, I had a medium-paid job, issues in finding a stable relationship and a feeling that I was missing something.

In the next 2 years I heard about saving and investing money, business, sales, entrepreneurship, so I ended up putting a target on the financial area.

At that time I was early into programming, passionate about a healthy lifestyle, so I decided to start selling and practice what I already knew:

• Application development;
• Meal plans;
• Workout programs;
• Outside group-training sessions.

Although enough money started to come, I still felt empty, with the relationship since then about to break.

That something I mentioned earlier was a lot bigger than the financial aspect. It was discovering me.

At 27 I realised I do not know myself and I'm totally disconnected.

My priority list immediately shifted:

• Understand what labels and trauma do I carry with me;
• Who is truly me;
• Stop judging others;
• Stop living my life based on other's opinion;
• Accept my past and present;
• Allow myself to love and have feelings again;
• Become authentic.

If you relate with any of the above, you can feel how tough and long that path was. Yes, it took a lot of time. More precisely over 2 years.

The unexpected of this rough period was that the more I stepped into myself, the more motivation was building up to discover, heal and explore more. I felt the true happiness, experienced the feeling of self-confidence, transparency, the courage of saying 'no'.

All of my actions, habits and mindset had lead me to the decision of living a holistic life, full of whatever I want and need, by getting better and better in 6 plans:

• Physical;
• Mental;
• Emotional;
• Spiritual;
• Social;
• Financial.

The goal

That was a lot for one reading. Thank you for sticking through here!

My intention is to help others to fully enjoy the life without the requirement to be a millionaire.

Will dive deeper into the subjects, decisions, motivational experiences and other aspects that brought me to fully enjoy the life in the following letters.